Coping with fear of my mother?

Wow, reading your story made me very sad about your situation. Your mother should never have talk to you like that or even said those things. This creates emotional scarring, you mom said all these things to you, it hurt you and now the inner pain is reflected upon your life. I can't tell you why are you afraid of your mom. You really have to stop and think about what makes you so afriad of your mom. Write down a self reflection on how your mother makes you turly feel. Sometimes you have to conquer fear before love. That fear is holding you back from presuing a better relationship with your mom. You have to forgive her in order for you to proceed in life. Its going to be hard but, everytime you try to make a wrong into a right it doesn't work out. Try to forgive her and see how far you go from there. I wish you luck and I really hope things will be brighter for you. :)